Excerpts from Kim Porter’s memoir reveal Diddy had ‘questionable’ relationships with men, including a pop star in his twenties.

DISGRACED rapper Sean “Diddy” Combs has been accused of assaulting his late girlfriend and taping himself having sex with a male teen pop star.

The shocking claims are just some of the revelations made in a 60-page memoir from beyond the grave, named Kim’s Lost Words

Sean ‘Diddy’ Combs and his late girlfriend Kim Porter during The 77th Annual Academy Awards
The music producer is accused of racketeering and sex trafficking
Porter and Combs with two of their three children together
The bombshell book allegedly details Diddy’s love life

It purports to be an assortment of Kim Porter’s diaries, which her friends exposed to the public.

Porter was the mother of three of Diddy’s children and died from pneumonia in 2018.

The memoir allegedly gives a glimpse into Combs’ love life from the 1990s to Porter’s final year.

It includes alleged philandering with both male and female rappers and top musicians as well as debauched orgies at his house that Porter participated in.

The book was independently published on September 6, a few days before federal prosecutors in New York accused the rapper and founder of Bad Boy Records on charges of racketeering and sex trafficking.


The book is being released as:


The 54-year-old music producer behind many iconic ’90s hits was denied bail by a second judge on Wednesday and remains in jail following his arrest on Monday evening at a Manhattan hotel.

On Tuesday, he pleaded not guilty to all the charges against him, which include racketeering, sex trafficking, and transportation to engage in prostitution.

He is currently being held in the infamous Metropolitan Detention Center in Brooklyn, New York, which formerly housed fellow disgraced musician R. Kelly and Ghislaine Maxwell, Jeffrey Epstein’s right hand.

Now, in the brief memoir, Diddy is said to have threatened Porter’s life and slapped her after losing his temper.

In the book, Porter tells the story of allegedly finding and duplicating videos that Diddy produced of himself having sex with “young boys” under his management, including one that allegedly features an 18-year-old who later became a well-known pop star.

Kim Porter tragically passed away from pneumonia in 2018
A court sketch of Sean ‘Diddy’ Combs
The music mogul denies all the charges against him

Porter allegedly said that as part of her plan to leave Sean, she found videotapes of his sex experiences in his bedroom “vault” and copied them for her own safety.

But the memoir claimed that she was shocked when she watched the tapes again.

She then falls fatefully ill in the memoir’s last chapter, dramatically messaging her pals, “he got me,” before calling 911.

Producer Chris Todd, who publishes the book in Los Angeles, claims that Porter shared a flash drive containing her writing with close friends, which he acquired and slightly altered to create a book published under the alias Jamal T Millwood.

The evidence against Sean ‘Diddy’ Combs

The months-long federal sex trafficking probe against Sean Combs has culminated in a searing incictment that was unsealed on Tuesday. Combs has been hit with one count of racketeering and one count of sex trafficking by force, fraud, or coercion, and one count of transportation to engage in prostitution. But behind those legal charges lies a mountain of alleged evidence of menace, violence, and horrific abuse of his fame. The indictment alleges:

  • Combs “abused, threatened, and coerced women and others around him to fulfill his sexual desires, protect his reputation, and conceal his conduct.”
  • He “created a criminal enterprise whose members and associates engaged in, and attempted to engage in, among other crimes, sex trafficking, forced labor, kidnapping, arson, bribery, and obstruction of justice.”
  • The rapper assaulted women by “striking, punching, dragging, throwing objects at, and kicking them.”
  • Combs “manipulated women to participate in highly orchestrated performances of sexual activity with male commercial sex workers” that he called “freak offs.”
  • Freak offs “occurred regularly, sometimes lasted multiple days, and often involved multiple commercial sex workers.”
  • During freak offs, he “distributed a variety of controlled substances to victims, in part to keep the victims obedient and compliant.”
  • After freak offs, Combs and the victims “typically received IV fluids to recover from the physical exertion and drug use.”
  • In March 2024, during searches of his residences in Miami and Los Angeles, “law enforcement seized various Freak Off supplies, including narcotics and more than 1,000 bottles of baby oil and lubricant.”
  • During and separate from Freak Offs, Combs “hit, kicked, threw objects at, and dragged victims, at times, by their hair…These assaults often resulted in injuries that took days or weeks to heal.”
  • He also used the “sensitive, embarrassing, and incriminating recordings” that he made during freak offs as “collateral to ensure the continued obedience and silence of the victims.”
  • Combs himself “brandished firearms to intimidate and threaten others, including victims of and witnesses to his abuse.”
  • During searches of his homes, “law enforcement seized firearms and ammunition, including three AR-15s with defaced serial numbers, as well as a drum magazine.”
  • Associates “assisted him in locating and contacting victims who attempted to flee his abuse.”
  • When witnesses to the abuse threatened his authority or reputation, he and members and associates of the enterprise “engaged in acts of violence, threats of violence, threats of financial and reputational harm, and verbal abuse. These acts of violence included kidnapping and arson.”

The book is marked as having been printed on September 7 this year in Las Vegas.

Todd hasn’t provided any evidence that it’s real, but he has put physical copies on Amazon for sale.

“I was lucky enough to meet someone that purported to have Kim Porter’s flash drive,” he told the Daily Mail.

“I know the celebrity source pretty well. I know how close they were to Kim and Diddy, and all the people in the hip hop community.

“This was supposedly for Kim Porter from the grave, to come forward and tell her story.”

Todd claimed he did not originally want to put his name on the book for security reasons, saying, “This is a dangerous situation, and I didn’t want to claim ownership of Kim’s words.”

“But now I’m willing to come forward because of the recent arrest of Sean Combs,” he added.

“Now the federal government has finally acted, I feel safer to come forward.”

Reports have already surfaced detailing some of the scandals included in the book, including star-studded orgies that the alleged participants have categorically denied occurring.

One claim is that Diddy hosted parties that were just “a fancy name of orgies, and everyone wanted in.”

Sordid ‘freak off’ orgies were allegedly held at his homes in Star Island, Florida
Diddy’s massive bed measuring 50 feet is located in the back of one of his properties
The giant bed seen from afar

These included reported threesomes and partner swaps.

Porter also wrote that she was sleeping with a well-known married woman.

The mother-of-three then went on to claim that she and Diddy had an “open relationship” and that she would often sleep with late legendary rapper Tupac Shakur.

According to the bombshell book, Porter claimed that Combs first hit her after she refused to use a strap-on on him.

She then became “infuriated” and wrote that she told Diddy to go have sex with a male music executive instead since she thought he was seeing someone else.

The short book also described another alleged incident at Porter’s apartment, in which she was allegedly attacked and threatened.

“He fiercely slammed me to the ground. Then he pulled out a .22 [handgun] and sat it on the end table,” according to the book.

Book publisher Todd asserted that copies of the music mogul’s alleged sex recordings were also in the possession of Porter and Diddy’s pals, who gave him the memoir.

He also said that a dubious intermediary had been pitching them to Hollywood documentarians.

“I was given the memoir, 60 pages. I was also given a photo, and told if I wanted access to the Diddy sex tapes, I could have that also,” Todd said.

“I know for a fact the [sex tape of Diddy with the teenage pop star] has been shopped to Hollywood studios by other parties.”

Todd released a picture of Porter, claiming it was taken in 2009 at her Toluca Lake estate bathroom.

He said that Porter’s friend snapped the picture of her applying makeup to hide an injury she got during one of Diddy’s alleged attacks.

The picture’s backdrop is identical to pictures taken by a realtor of the mansion’s master bathroom, where Porter was subsequently discovered dead in 2018.

The book’s release comes as a newly-filed indictment claimed Diddy hid sordid orgies in secret “sex rooms” at his mansions on one of the most expensive pieces of American real estate.

Cops who swept Diddy’s Miami mansion have also revealed the jailed music mogul could turn out to be as bad as Jeffrey Epstein.

If you or someone you know is affected by any of the issues raised in this story, call RAINN (Rape, Abuse, & Incest National Network) at 800-656-HOPE (4673).

The Metropolitan Detention Center in Brooklyn, where Diddy is being held, features 10ft by 12ft cells containing little more than a bunk bed
The prison has been described as one of the most troubled in America
Sean Combs, pictured in 2018, is among high-profile names being held at the jail

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Source: Los Angeles Times (edited)

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